YouTube is my next step!

Hey guys,

I Just wanted to write a little update as to why I haven’t posted very much. I have taken the leap and started a YouTube channel! WHAT !!!!!! I have wanted to do it for about two years but was way too scared, so after putting myself first I uploaded my first video. I was so nervous and scared but also so excited and it felt crazy to be doing something out of my comfort zone.

I have now hit one of my goals of 100 views on a video, I will be talking about many of the things I have written about on here but I thought it was important to still include them even if I’m being repetitive. Who I am is based on what I have been through and that is the reason I started a channel so I thought it was one right to talk about the serious and important experiences I have had that so many other people go through as well. I am also hoping to do everything from beuty, baking, fashion, Health and life, so just about anything I want !

I really hope you go over and check It out, also would be so extremely grateful if you subscribed ! I would love you to comment on my videos so I can see that you came from my blog.  If you have any video suggestions or questions I can answer in a video let me know I will be happy to do that!

I think I may take a little time to get settled with YouTube but of course I will be back here soon!

Check out my channel here : First Youtube Video


See you soon!



Quick and simple chocolate cupcakes

Do you need a quick and easy chocolate cupcake recipe? then this is the one for you!

Yesterday I baked these chocolate cupcakes, I realised I haven’t made them for a while so stuck the oven on and whipped these up.


3 eggs ( weight them and all the other ingredients need to be weighed to the same amount) Mine came to 188g

Self-raising flour

Caster sugar

Softened butter, or baking spread

2 tbsp cocoa powder

For the icing:

147g Icing sugar

1 1/2 tbsp cocoa powder

75g unsalted butter softened

1 wisps bar

1 tube of smarties

4 chocolate fingers

Lakeland caramel swirls


Pre-heat oven to 180 degrees fan

Cream together the butter and sugar

Sift together the flour and cocoa powder

Add one egg at a time into the creamed butter and sugar, with a tbsp of the flour mixture

Mix until incorporated after adding each of the eggs

Fold the rest of the flour and cocoa powder into the cake batter trying to get as much air into the mixture as possible.

Spoon equally into each cupcake case

Bake in the oven for 18-22 minutes, taking them out when a skewer comes out clean.

Leave to cool for 10 minutes before transferring onto a wire rack.

Buttercream icing


Sift together the icing sugar and cocoa powder

Cream the butter before adding in the sifted icing sugar and cocoa powder a couple of spoonfuls at a time.

Add a tsp of cold water into the icing one by one until you get the right consistency, you don’t want it too stiff but don’t add too much water either.

Spoon the icing into an icing bag with the nozzle of your choice,  for these I just used a round one but i have to say its not my favourite.

Ice the cupcakes adding the decorations as you go.

leave to set for 20 minutes before transferring to a container.

single chcolate cupcake edited


There you have a quick and easy chocolate cupcake recipe, let me know what you would like me to bake next in the comments, like and hit the follow button!

















See you next year, One year follow up appointment at the Royal Marsden.

I can’t believe that I now don’t have to go to the Royal Marsden for a whole year! Yesterday I had my first one year follow-up appointment and it was very different to all of the other hospital appointments I have had. There’s no questions like ” Have you had any symptoms” or ” How are you feeling in yourself”. There’s no more investigations or tests, it’s simply an appointment to talk about your next steps.

The appointment revolved around how I am coping post cancer, what I’m getting  up to and what are my plans for the next year. They like to know that you are taking care of your body, eating healthy, exercising, not smoking etc. They seemed to be happy about the way I was looking after myself and They could see that I didn’t need any help with these things.

They also gave me my treatment plan from when I had cancer. I had never seen it before so it was quite interesting to see it all written down, it includes all of the chemotherapy drugs I had and side effects, they also told me about all of the rare but possible complications you could be faced with in the future. 

We talked a lot about college and my plans for maybe going back, I know now isn’t the right time for me to go back to college but I am planning to go back one day, once I have  everything under control its something I will think about. I did find that I felt slightly down after the appointment because I felt like I wasn’t doing anything with my life but I know that it takes time and eventually I will. I find I feel like that when anyone brings up college or working, I guess it makes me feel slightly pressured and that overwhelms me sometimes.

Overall it was a good appointment and I’m just so excited that my next appointment is in May 2018!



Tomorrows a big day! before my first yearly checkup.

Tomorrow is my first one year appointment at the Royal Marsden Hospital and I have been thinking about everything that’s happened over the last six years. Thinking about how far I have come, all of the challenges I have faced along the way and all of the ups and downs I have experienced. Even though a lot of the things I have faced have been hard I have pushed myself and worked through them.

I always seem to put myself down and never let myself be proud of how far I have come but today I told myself that I am brave, I am strong and I can do it. I have come such a long way physically and mentally and I will carry on and push myself to use my experiences to do some good.

I always thought that bad times would never end, now I know they do. As crazy as it sounds I am a survivor, I never say that but today I feel like one because tomorrow is a milestone I worked hard to reach and I feel so lucky that I reached it.

So, tomorrow is a big day, I will write a whole post on how it went but for now I am letting myself feel proud, you should feel proud of yourselves too.

Mental health awareness week

Last week from 8th-14th May was mental health awareness week. I wanted to chat/talk about how I feel about it and do an overview of the week.

I saw how many people were opening up about their experiences with mental health through social media, it was incredible to see this big community of people finally talking about what they have been through. The support people were giving each other felt like we were finally making a break through on the whole stigma that surrounds mental health. It was empowering to see so many people pull together to help lift someone up, even a complete stranger. The love people were giving each other definitely made me smile.

It was also heart breaking to see just how many people were suffering or knew someone that was. I see the statistics and numbers all of the time but reading peoples stories made those numbers feel real. I talk about how the illness is invisible but even I was taken aback at how invisible it really is and how people are struggling without anyone knowing.

We shouldn’t need a week for people to feel comfortable about opening up, I hope that we will get to the point where someone can open up whenever they feel ready to. I hope and feel that this week has made a difference that finally a little piece of that stigma has been torn away.

Lastly I want you to know that you are not alone, so many of us are going through personal battles that one day we will overcome but together we can lift each other up and support each other, whether we are friends or complete strangers that doesn’t matter.

Read all about my battle with Anxiety and Depression here:



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On the go makeup look, using only five products 

This makeup look is super easy and great to do before running out of the door, and you only need to use five makeup products!

Bobbi brown touch up stick concealer 

I use this under my eyes ( especially if you haven’t had much sleep) on my chin, nose and forehead to create a even base and on any blemishes I might have. you can blend it out with a brush if you want to but using your ring finger works just as well.

Mac blush – breath of plum 

Blush is great for a minimal makeup look because it just adds a little bit of colour and makes you look more alive!

Tinted eyebrow gel 

I like doing my eyebrows because I think it just defines your face and using an eyebrow gel is a great way to cut back time! I don’t use a tinted brow gel but I know that Benefit do one and so many other brands too. I cheated a bit as I don’t have a tinted brow gel so I used a pencil (Anastasia Beverly Hills in medium brown) 

Mascara- Dolce  and Gabbana secret eyes 

Mascara is a great product its so quick and everyone has one in their makeup bag.

Charlotte tilbury lipgloss – seduction 

This is quite a new product, I got given it as a gift for my birthday and it’s a lovely nude/pink, I don’t find it sticky like some lipglosses, I think it would be a good product to throw in your handbag for on the go.

That’s it, five simple products to make a makeup look!

Let me know what products you would use if you needed to get ready in a hurry!

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Basic vanilla birthday cake

This is the recipe I use to create this vanilla birthday cake, its so easy anyone could make it!

Vanilla Sponge


weigh your four eggs and measure the rest of your ingredients to the same weight.

Weight of four eggs ( mine came to 270g)

Caster sugar

Self raising flour(sifted)

Butter/ Margarine

vanilla extract 2 tsp


Two 8inch round tins

Parchment paper


pre- heat your oven to 170-180 degrees fan.

Grease and line your baking tins, sprinkle with flour around the sides.

Cream together the butter and sugar until light and creamy.

Add eggs one at a time with a teaspoon of flour and mix until fully incorporated.

Add vanilla extract and mix again.

Fold in the rest of the flour, ( folding the flour in is the best way to get air into the mixture)

Spoon the mixture equally between two cake tins, I like to weigh the tins to make sure its as equal as possible.

Spread the mixture out carefully with a knife until its nice and even.

Bake on the middle shelf for 25-30 minutes( mine took 28) but DO NOT open the oven door before 25 minutes, it may cause the cake to sink!

Remove the cake from the oven when it is golden brown and springs back to the tough, or when a skewer comes out of the cake clean.

Leave to cool for 10 minutes before removing from the tin and leaving to fully cool on a cooling rack.

You can only ice the cake once it is fully cool.


Butter icing


200g unsalted butter

400g icing sugar (sifted)



Cream the butter until its  nice and smooth.

Add in the icing sugar a little bit at a time and mix until fully incorporated.

Add water a teaspoon at a time until the icing is smooth and not too thick but you DONT want it runny!

Add colouring if needed.

Put the half of the icing into a piping bag and cut of the end to pipe a circle around the outside of the cake.

fill in the middle with the remaining buttercream to create an even layer.

Put the other half in a new piping bag with the nozzle you would like to create the design you want and pipe the pattern you want.

Decorate with sprinkle and glitter, I used ones I already had in my baking cupboard.

Finish of with candles and any cake toppers and your cake is complete.


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